Living Within Samsara

[…] Being open about her recovery from alcoholism, Samsara shares her experiences and her advice so that others may benefit. In addition to writing about the well-known Alcoholics Anonymous program, she’s able to inject a little of her own struggles in other posts such as Astral Dream Dark Presence and Done with Alcoholics Anonymous. In fact, I’d say this latter post of hers is a testament to how she continues to break free from the embrace of alcoholism by informing her readers how her AA group failed to meet their objectives. It takes a strong person to not only identify something like that, but to also act on it by deciding to leave the group and seek help elsewhere. […]

I read this and could relate to the experience so well. I am about to go into detail so I hope this worries no one. I was alone in my room at my grandmother’s house, only her and I lived in that house, but any time I left my room, I felt I had to turn all the lights on in my path because I felt a subconscious fear of the dark, and felt as if someone was watching me at all times. Once my cousin came over and we were talking in the kitchen and I suddenly stopped talking and told her that i felt a presence come up to us and observe. I literally thought my boyfriend had come into the kitchen (he was staying the night), but no one was there. She admitted to feeling the same presence. I have had sensitive people see dark masses in my bedroom. Whenever I was attacked, I would fall asleep with so much more ease than ever before, the lighting changed, the sound frequencies changed, it’s as if I were trapped in another dimension. Things felt like they were in slow motion, I tried to scream and move, to wake myself up, to escape, but nothing came. I felt pressure inside of my body, up against the back of my ribs, as if something tried to take control of my core but I was rejecting it. I tried so hard to whimper “help me” a few times, once I said “help me,” I felt another presence that was not the same. I was energized and made stronger and able to say the words assertively to rebuke satan in the name of jesus christ. Once I said those words I felt the presence come out my mouth and roar the last few words, which was terrifying that it came from my body and went out my bedroom door. I was able to awaken. I was terrified. I went to wake my grandmother and smoke a cigarette outside, when I was praying constantly for the evil energies to retreat, then I vomited… Which freaked me out even more… Astrally I saw myself in my grandmothers bed unable to control my contorting body rolling back and forth… It was pretty scary. I have never dealt with any sort of realistic nightmare like this, when i was a child I had other experiences with spirits and people who have passed, but never these demonic seeming figures until the past year. The last experience I had was a couple days ago. Got the feeling I was being watched in my boyfriend’s empty house, then as falling asleep I gasped loudly and jumped, then starting praying and the light turned on and off… What do you think?

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